I have had severe hives twice in the past.
The first time was when I was choosing which school to apply to for high school, and the second time was when I was wondering if I should quit college.
I was worried to death for about a month. Then, one day, I felt a pimple appear, and day by day, the area of the pimple expanded, quickly spreading over my entire body.
When I was in elementary school, I went camping twice and got a terrible rash (I have weak skin), and since then I had a phobia of itching, so the spreading of the rash was just terrifying.
I was in the third year of junior high school at the time, and when I finally couldn’t take it any longer and went to a dermatologist, I was told that such things should be treated by a psychosomatic medicine specialist. I went to the dermatologist, who told me that I should go to a psychosomatic medicine for that kind of thing. She was also “?
After agonizing over the results, I finally decided which school to enter, but the day after I decided, the hives disappeared from my body as if it was a lie. It was as if a miracle had occurred overnight.
The second time I went to the university, I told the doctor, “Hives are actually not well understood in medicine, and in my opinion, hives are caused by worries. In other words, I believe that hives are caused by unverbalized mumbo-jumbo blowing out from the skin,” he told me, again in a carefree manner.
At the time, I had no one to talk to about the results, so I was left to ponder the meaning of this alone. Later, when I came to a conclusion about college, all of this disappeared just as it had in junior high school. And then I understood what two doctors had once told me.
In other words, verbalization means to convince oneself with words and logic, and to clear one’s hazy feelings. Because you can’t do that, it comes out in your body. He wanted to say that it makes you sick.
In someone’s essay, a doctor said to him, “You are empty. But in fact, that was a compliment, and he apologized to the doctor when he realized that a healthy person who has no worries means a person who is feeling clear and light, in other words, “empty.
Since then, I have learned to look for the cause of my sudden health problems from within, rather than looking for external causes. I tried to verbalize the feelings I was having.
And when I began to keep that in mind, no matter how bad my problems got, the signs of hives stopped coming (this is just my own way of thinking).
But, I have to “make myself understand”. The difficulty of this task was and still is the same (and the problem is bigger). It is not enough to just get older, and relying on alcohol or other people will only help you forget this foggy consciousness for a moment.
So, at the end of the day, we may have to create our own way of “making ourselves understood,” little by little, through trial and error.
See you soon!
