What do you do in your spare time?”
I’ve heard that it’s actually a person’s greatest hobby.
Watching TV in a daze; watching YouTube. Sleeping. Running, etc.
When people are asked upfront, “What are your hobbies?” it is normal for people, not only in interviews but also in other situations, to be defensive or to think about how they will be perceived before answering.
Watching sports, going to the movies, or reading a book.
If these are true hobbies from the bottom of one’s heart, that’s fine, but based on the principle at the beginning of this article, are they really the person’s hobbies?
As a matter of fact, they may like to do things that are a little guilty, such as talking bad about others, watching adult movies, drinking alcohol in the daytime, or flirting with the opposite sex behind closed doors.
And while I honestly don’t care what other people’s hobbies are, I sometimes think that for me, perhaps my biggest hobby is “gaming.
As I have written before, I have been quite fond of video games since I was a high school student. I have completed all the famous RPGs such as “Dracula” and “Final Fantasy” from the very beginning,
I have also played “Nobunaga’s Ambition” and “Sangokushi” from the very beginning.
I also have a complete collection of video game consoles, from the NES to the recent PS5 (the PS5 is still in storage at my parents’ house).
However, when people ask me what my “hobbies” are, I tend to answer pretentiously that I have no hobbies because I am an escapist (in the style of Osamu Dazai), or that I take walks or compose haiku.
At the same time, it seems that I don’t look like I play “video games” from the other side.
Furthermore, although I am a big Chunichi Dragons fan, I don’t seem to watch any professional baseball games.
In fact, he has been playing video games for several decades. And recently, he even played a Gundam online game.
However, among them, I suddenly realized that I haven’t bought any RPGs that I liked so much, nor have I bought any new Final Fantasy games, nor have I lost interest in them.
It was the moment I completed Final Fantasy 15, which took me five years to finish.
I thought to myself, “Ah, I don’t want to play RPGs anymore.
There are many possible reasons for this, such as the fact that the action elements have become stronger, but to put it simply, it may be because I have come to think of them as tedious.
In other words, I think the biggest reason was that I had been immersed in the world of real RPGs over many years of social experience, and had managed to survive there.
I feel that it is just too much trouble to start from the weak level 1, whether it is virtual, in a game, in a comic book, or in the real world. As if I had to do life all over again.
When I was younger, I would probably compensate for my weakness in the real world with the virtual world of RPGs.
However, just because I am getting older, I am not successful socially, nor do I feel as if my level has improved. In fact, I think I have become weaker.
But even the compensatory measures in the virtual world have become troublesome. I don’t care if I was born in another dimension and am a hero, or if I am actually a noble species, or if I am really……. In reality, there is no such thing. And even if there was, I lost interest in it.
So, I don’t know. I am sure they were born that way, and it is absolutely hard enough to feel sorry for them.
It may be, after all, that I am coming to terms somewhat with my own life as a man, not as a noble species or anything.
When I was younger, I escaped to easy pleasures, to illusions, to games because I just couldn’t come to terms with reality.
